the thoughts of a begal.

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 18:42:10 GMT

i'm so weak right now, i dont know why i'm so sick
i constantly feel like i have to puke
i called into work sick:(
i felt like an asshole for doing that
gah
TheOC is ontonight, that should be sweet
last night was so good, i hope everytime is like that
i am really happy with that whole situation in the first place
i'm going to lay in bed. yayyy

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 06:44:31 GMT

becks voice makes me melt
enough said
he's the only man i need, and thats for sure

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 02:17:05 GMT

i hate and despise every song that is played on the radio off of GREENDAYS new cd, american idiot. every song in my opinion is horrible.
definatly my most hated band right now

i also hate when people write like this in myspace.

hey renee...how are u...i still remembah/b> u...u went 2 skewl wit meeh...i waz in ur 1st period class down in PACIFIC MIDDLE SKEWL...we had PE 2 getha...we would alwaiz say hi 2 each otha...but dat all ended when u had 2 go 2 mt.rainier high skewl...well hey i hope 2 see u soon...bye

are you kidding me???? ugh.

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 17:41:22 GMT

i dont like falling asleep early, and hten sleeping in late.
it feels like a waste of time

since today is one of my two days off this week, i'm spending the majority of my day with some quiet...me time i guess

i'm going to clean my room, go tanning, shower, cook, listen to music. relax.

shit i'm excited

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 06:31:37 GMT

you know your boy loves you when he'll come over at 10:45 at night because you have found a mouse in your room, and you need him to capture it for you

i hate miceeeee

but i love you, thank you again

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 05:42:33 GMT

shit on the god damn pictures. welllllllllllll yeah...........

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 17:24:39 GMT

shiiiiiiiiit my birthday was amazing
first camping was really fun, though we got attacked my a million spiders
blakes mom made us Figolie sp?(from olive garden), and i got a cute card with a picture from rennisance fair in it, we look soo cute
then my sweet sweet boyfriend took my to see the 40 year old virgin
we got the BEST bacon burgers from mitzels
went to castles
headed to the casino!!! we basically won like 10 bucks
i love the casino x's4314314141
then i slept at blakes house last night
i &hearts blake so much, no one will ever knowwwwwww

i'm scared about getting fired:/
oh the fuck well....i'm going to the casino again today, i'm gonna feast on that free buffet

being 18 is so far really sweet

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 00:41:06 GMT

found my john fruciante cd, i forgot how good it was
sitting around waiting to go do girl errands and moped/scooter around town again
and bring katie her kitten:)
blake brought me BK breakfast, he's been sooo good to me lately, i feel spoiled
camping tomorowwwwwwww, im hella excited
CHIEKO< we all want you to go, call us back or soemthign!>/!/!/1>:0
i'm afraid i may be fired from work, for calling in today
oh well, not the end of the world

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 00:17:05 GMT

Renaissance, fair was really cool, me,blake, his sister and a few of his sisters friends went this morning
pretty much a midevil fair, lots of people were dressed up, including blake. i thought he looked really hot, not even kidding

he bought me this really cute/pretty ring, but i dont get it until my birthday:(

Bacon Burgers from Mitzels are the most delicious things i've ever devoured

though, my favorite part of the day, was when blake was driving me home, i had my face towards the window, getting the cool breeze, and i got to listen to him sing "sultans of swing". it made me soo happy
i want to be with him for a long time, i want to eventually marry him. i DO not want him to leave

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 05:41:14 GMT

man, thank god for my boyfriend
sorry for my crazy crazy outbursts from all my stress

goddddddddddd i'm so thankful.
you mean the world to me, THE WORLD.

i love you

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 01:24:20 GMT

my wish of the day would honestly be that i could for even just 30 minutes switch lives with someone, so when i'm really upset or emotional, or think something's a bigger deal than they might think it is, that they can see WHY i think this way and WHY i feel this way

i dont see myself lasting long at old navy
i cant do it

FUCK

work update.

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 13:04:27 GMT

god damn, i dont know how much more of this {work} i can take.
it's cool that it's 8 hours a day, whatever to that, but i mean working 8 hours a day
for over a week straight, takes its toll on me

i feel like i dont do anything, except work
thankfully todays shift is 7am-4pm.
and i'll have the night to hangout with my boy
the theater was a lot easier than this stuff

but old navy is open now, so go shop there. chances are you'll see me running around like a mad woman, but i'll be there

last night, it was So god damn crazy, we made 68,000 dollars in 4 hours.

7 daysssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss seems sooo far away

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 05:25:29 GMT

No doubt's song-simple kind of life, couldnt have more perfect lyrics that pertain to something going on in my life than it does
the lyrics totally describe how i feel about the situation with blake

and not to mention that like three girls are pregnant at my work
and like two are getting married within the next month
all younger than like 24
and it makes me wish so much that i was getting married, that i was pregnant

(simple kind of life...)

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

gwen stefani knows how to put shit down.

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 06:31:49 GMT

life is so hard, sometimes it's easy, but then there's times like tonight, where you feel all of it at one time.

the 3 main things
-my dad having cancer
-blake leaving
-figuring out what am i going to do with my life

all my motivation and incentive has left me, and i dont think it's coming back for a while

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 16:30:43 GMT

happy birthday chieko

last night was great, but i really fucked up one of my big toes, and it hurts really bad and i have to go to work and be a black man slave today, for 9 hours, with a hurting toe:( noooo fucking christ EDIT:toe's feeling better, got out of work which is cool, i feel like shit still though

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 19:16:54 GMT

uh oh, hair experiment is taking place right now
dark brown beneath my blonde?
i hope this turns out well, if not..then fuck i dont know
i'm just bored with my hair, and it needs to get long NOW

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 06:54:03 GMT

i really do not know what i am going to do in five months and 12 days, when blake leaves me and goes to bootcamp. i love him so much, and i cant imagine being without him
it would seem we would be sooo wrong for eachother, nothing in common but honestly we're so right together. i dont even know how, but we are. he puts up with my emotional girliness, and still gives me chances, where if i was a boy, i dont think i would put up with it

you were meant for me, and i was meant for you

i love underwear shopping, adventures in the woods, being totally tired and lazy. when i'm around him, i feel happy, and i need to tell/show that more

i love love love love love love love love stewary blake veal ♥

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 05:49:58 GMT

hi, my name is Megan Mae Harsila, and i love to over react.

that is all

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 08:22:28 GMT

right now, i really want a piece of sharis apple pie
fuck for living in suquamish, no where near a god damn sharis

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 23:24:38 GMT

wearing moccasins is always a good idea
getting up at 6am is not

i'm having baaaaaaaaad blake withdrawls. sleeping with the sweatshirt he gave to me that smells like him is not good enough
:(

for some reason i'm becoming obsessed with shoes/sandals. i've purchased like 5 sandals/moccasins/shoes just this week. i have soooo many
ilovethem.
today's lame. i miss my boy more than anything

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 07:41:26 GMT

All i wanna know, is happiness, for you and me

catching up with old friends is nice
i'm sad for shayna and trey though
i wonder what they'll do, stay together or not that is

i want to have blake stay the night with me at my house again
that must happen soon

oh 6am, don't rush yourself,i dont want to see you

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 10:13:15 GMT

i hate the police, tonight was the second night in a row, that i have been scared as fuck because i'll be on hte suquamish highway on my way home and a police car will turn on his lights behind me
so i think i'm getting pulled over, and then they just speed past me
i'm happy to not get pulled over, but it is annoying none the less
jerks.
nardy time was good, thanks for the food nard
too bad we had a ball scratcher waitor, but then there was jason
and he had eye sex with you, lucky
got to see my boo tonight, for the first time in what seems forever
it was a treat

loving, cleaning, sweating.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 20:15:13 GMT

one day, i'm going to make a wonderful housewife

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 10:08:35 GMT

today love smiled on me

after a shitty day, a lovely night came along
met with chieko, visited joel:)
got in weird car situations
stalked by some black and mexican dudes in a black truck, it was scary
pie, MOttzzz
just like the old times, and i liked it

i'm going to sleep foreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeever

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 03:22:07 GMT

why do i feel so strange?
why do i feel so upset?
why do i feel so distant?
why am i mad?
why do i want to just sit and cry?

why why why

today sucked. i hate the heat, and i hate stupid nights at home alone

i wanted to go to the bowling alley tonight, i have some sweet free stuff coupons
but i feel like...ignored and maybe unwanted

wow. being a girl is really lame sometimes

edit:okay night was just made becuase of Matt from Worldleaders pretend(the one i couldnt remember the name and we got a picture with his bandmate last night)called me back after we called the number on the card they gave out

anyways long story short, me and katie are totally diggin on this band, and matt seemed really cool and katie is going to marry alex
the end.